Thursday, January 26, 2006

Movie : Memoirs of a Geisha


After last Wednesday's 'Elizabethtown', I choose to see 'Memoirs of a Geisha' with my friend. Before the show, we have a wonderful dinner at Yuki@Yaki, it is a buffet dinner with Japanese Steamboat and BBQ, the interesting part is the customer self-make Ice-Cream. Too bad, I did not take any photo. The dinner is to celebrate my friend's fat bonus and her coming birthday. Back to the movie, it is beautifully shooted and having a engrossing story. It is rather special, especially focusing on the war between the few women in the movie (With the Second World War in the Background). I have never really understand women, perhaps never will, it is interesting to see how commited to love, hated and revenge. Pumpkin in the movie executed the most surprised move, taking her revenge at the most crucial time while all the while claim that all is forgiven, she is even most sinsister than her big sister (by Gong Li). Fearful women.

Saturday, January 21, 2006

What a lovely character.


看了四集的'仙剑奇侠传', 觉的'赵灵儿'真好. 温柔贤淑, 可爱又善良. 戏毕竟是戏, 真的有这么好的人吗?

My new phone


Just bought my new phone today, it is Samsung's SGH-D600. With its 2 Mega Pixel Camera, taking photo for blog will be more convenience.

Friday, January 20, 2006

'FIFA 2000' Testing.


As promised to a fellow blogger, I am testing 'FIFA 2000' on my system running Windows XP just now. After installed, the game run fine just as he suggested that some of his friend did too. Seems no problem. Let me think about what could caused the difference.

My new and first Golf Set


After the course and various practise, I bought my first golf set. Tomorrow, I will bring it to test at the driving range. The pic shows 4 clubs missing, because they are in my sunday bag, packed for tomorrow's practise.

Cocktail - Sidecar


This is another example of simple Cocktail.

1.75 measure - Cognac
0.75 measure - Cointreau
0.75 measure - Lemon Juice

Taste good, looks average.
A practical cocktail.
Cointreau is a brandy-based spirit that has been favoured with the rind of bitter oranges. It can mix with also any spirit (perhaps except Whisky) and mixing with Brandy will make sidecar.

Thursday, January 19, 2006

Movie : Elizabethtown


Just watched Elizabethtown. This movie is just lovely, simply lovely. The movie is full of love and life. Orlando Bloom and Kirsten Dunst did well. I felt so encouraging and positive after the movie. Highly recommended.

Monday, January 16, 2006

Cocktail - Blue Shark


I have a busy day and a few rounds of table tennis after work. Being quite tired, I decided to make a drink for myself, so as to have a better sleep.
So tonight, I tried this beautiful cocktail - Blue Shark.
Do not be misled by the beautiful look, this drink is very strong.
It consist of vodka, tequila and blue curcaco only, without mixing with juice or carbonated drink, so it is a rather strong drink.
Sweet Dream to myself.

Friday, January 13, 2006

Office Update

Today, we have a kick off meeting with the outsourcing vendor, also some of my colleagues will meet their new employer and those of us who stayed have had our 1st team meeting. 'The new CIO Office will be a team of thinkers, the operation will be perform by the outsourcing vendor', said our DCIO. He proceeded to tell us the plan and the challenge ahead, it will be a very busy year and will focus on transition this year. Everyone have their role more or less, except myself. As I will be doing Technology planning for the organisation, it will be quite uncertain as of what will be the technology and how to measure my performance. I will have to think about it in the weekend. All in all, I am glad I am given such a chance to take on this role and leave my technical role behind, I hope I will not be a disappointment.

My plan is
1) Identify and priorise the IT need in the organisation.
2) Set up networking with other Agencies and Vendors, so as to keep up with trend and technology development.
3) Work with the business analysts and check if new technology is require in their coming project.
4) Train up on Strategy planning, interpersonal and presentation skill

More to add on. The most urgent task is to have smooth transition of my work and my current boss work, also collect data for IDA to prepare for the coming SOE implementation.

Actually, due to the changes in this few days, I am emotionally quite disturbed, as I feel the distance from some colleagues that will be outsourced. Some do not want to talk and a couple even put remarks as 'Hah, you can stay ah!?!?' as though I am not good enough to stay, may be I am not, but could they not just be graceful and say something nice. Well, may be they are not in good mode, I will be too if I am them.

But somehow, I think through, leaving this organisation may be a good choice too, as the outsourcing vendor is a very big company and have quite good prospect although they are going to the subsidary only. But the incoming technical lead is actually our helpdesk team leader 6 years ago. If he can climb in 6 years with that vendor, who can say that going to the outsourcing vendor isn't a blessing in disguise? By exposing to more environment and gather more experience, knowing more people, opportunity may be waiting somewhere. My dear colleagues, do not lose hope, things may be better than you think, also as Mattew Andrews say 'If you cannot change the situation, make the best of it'. Lastly, changing is unavoidable, but worrying is optional. All the best.

Thursday, January 12, 2006

New Job Portfolio

I am told that I will be leaving my current job based on technical knowledge and will be doing Technology Planning in my new portfolio, also I will be reporting directly to my debuty CIO (Whom I have a feeling may be promoting to CIO soon). It is a blessing in disguise, as I will be doing management and planning work rather than daily technical administrative work.

I shall be researching for my own jobscope and KPI (key performance indicator) in the coming days. Tomorrow, the whole picture of the new organisation chart will be shown and schedule for handing over will be introduced.

Hope everything will go smoothly.

True Love and True Care (Story)

I was born in a secluded village on a mountain. Day by day, my parents ploughed the yellow dry soil with their backs towards the sky. I have a brother who is 3 years younger than me. I wanted to buy a handkerchief, which all girls around me seemed to have.

So, one day I stole 50 cents from my father's drawer. Father had discovered about the stolen money right away. He made me and my younger brother kneel against the wall as he held a bamboo stick in his hand.

"Who stole the money?" he asked. I was stunned, too afraid to talk. Neither of us admitted to the fault, so he said, "Fine, if nobody wants to admit, you two should be beaten!"

He lifted up the bamboo stick. Suddenly, my younger brother gripped father's hand and said, "Dad, I was the one who did it!"

The long stick smacked my brother's back repeatedly. Father was so angry that he kept on whipping my brother until he lost his breath. After that, he sat down on our stone bed and scolded my brother.

"You have learned to steal from your own house now. What other embarrassing things will you be possibly doing in the future? You should be beaten to death, you shameless thief!"

That night, my mother and I hugged my brother. His body was full of wounds from the beating but he never shed a single tear. In the middle of the night, all of sudden, I cried out loudly. My brother covered my mouth with his little hand and said, "Sis, now don't cry anymore. Everything has happened". I still hate myself for not having enough courage to admit what I did.

Years gone by, but the incident still seemed like it just happened yesterday. I will never forget my brother's expression when he protected me. That year, my brother was 8 years old and I was 11 years old. When my brother was in his last year of secondary school, he was accepted in an upper secondary school in the central. At the same time, I was accepted into a university in the province. That night, father squatted in the yard, smoking, packet by packet. I could hear him ask my mother, "Both of our children, they have good results? Very good results?"
Mother wiped off her tears and sighed, "What is the use? How can we possibly finance both of them?"

At that time, my brother walked out, he stood in front of father and said, "Dad, I don't want to continue my study anymore, I have read enough books." Father swung his hand and slapped my brother on his face.

"Why do you have a spirit so damn weak? Even if it means I have to beg for money on the streets, I will send you two to school until you have both finished your study!"

And then, he started to knock on every house in the village to borrow money. I stuck out my hand as gently as I can to my brother's swollen face, and told him, "A boy has to continue his study. If not, he will not be able to overcome this poverty we are experiencing."

I, on the other hand, had decided not to further my study at the university. Nobody knew that on the next day, before dawn, my brother left the house with a few pieces of worn-out clothes and a few dry beans. He sneaked to my side of the bed and left a note on my pillow; "Sis, getting into a university is not easy. I will go find a job and I will send money to you. I held the note while sitting on my bed,and cried until I lost my voice.

That year, my brother was 17 years old; I was 20 years old. With the money father borrowed from the whole village, and the money my brother earned from carrying cement on his back at a construction site, finally, I managed to get to the third year of my study in the university.

One day, while I was studying in my room, my roommate came in and told me, "There's a villager waiting for you outside!" Why would there be a villager looking for me? I walked out, and I saw my brother from afar. His whole body was covered with dirt, dust, cement and sand. I asked him, "Why did you not tell my roommate that you are my brother?"

He replied with a smile, "Look at my appearance. What will they think if they would know that I am your brother? Won't they laugh at you?"

I felt so touched, and tears filled my eyes. I swept away dirt and dust from my brother's body. And told him with a lump in my throat, " I don't care what people would say! You are my brother no matter what your appearance is?"

From his pocket, he took out a butterfly hair clip. He put it on my hair and said, "I saw all the girls in town are wearing it. So, I think you should also have one." I could not hold back myself anymore. I pulled my brother into my arms and cried.

That year, my brother was 20 years old; I was 23 years old. I noticed that the broken window was repaired the first time I brought my boyfriend home. The house was scrubbed cleaned. After my boyfriend left, I danced like a little girl in front of my mother, "Mom, you didn't have to spend so much time cleaning the house!"

But she told me with a smile, "It was your brother who went home early to clean the house. Didn't you see the wound on his hand? He hurt his hand while he was replacing the window." I went into my brother's bedroom. Looking at his thin face, I felt like there are hundreds of needle pricked in my heart. I applied some ointment on his wound and put a bandage on it.

"Does it hurt? " I asked him.

"No, it doesn't hurt. You know, when at the construction site, stones keep falling on my feet. Even that could not stop me from working." In the middle of the sentence, he stopped. I turned my back on him and tears rolled down my face.

That year, my brother was 23 years old; I was 26 years old. After I got married, I lived in the city. Many times my husband invited my parents to come and live with us, but they didn't want. They said, once they left the village, they wouldn't know what to do. My brother agreed with them. He said, "Sis, you just take care of your parents-in-law. I will take care of mom and dad here."

My husband became the director of his factory. We asked my brother to accept the offer of being the manager in the maintenance department. But my brother rejected the offer. He insisted on working as a repairman instead for a start.

One day, my brother was on the top of a ladder repairing a cable, when he got electrocuted, and was sent to the hospital. My husband and I visited him at the hospital. Looking at the white gypsum on his leg, I grumbled, "Why did you reject the offer of being a manager? Managers won't do something dangerous like that. Now look at you, you are suffering a serious injury. Why didn't you just listen to us?"

With a serious expression on his face, he defended his decision, "Think of brother-in-law. He just became the director, and I being uneducated, and would become a manager, what kind of rumors would fly around?"

My husband's eyes filled up with tears, a! nd then I said, "But you lack in education only because of me!"
"Why do you talk about the past?" he said and then he held my hand. That year, he was 26 years old and I was 29 years old.

My brother was 30 years old when he married a farmer girl from the village. During the wedding reception, the master of ceremonies asked him, "Who is the one person you respect and love the most?"

Without even taking a time to think, he answered," My sister." He continued by telling a story I could not even remember. "When I was in primary school, the school was in a different village. Everyday, my sister and I would walk for 2 hours to school and back home. One day, I lost the other pair of my gloves. My sister gave me one of hers. She wore only one glove and she had to walk far. When we got home, her hands were trembling because of the cold weather that she could not even hold her chopsticks. From that day on, I swore that as long as I live, I would take care of my sister and will always be good to her."

Applause filled up the room. All guests turned their attention to me. I found it hard to speak, "In my whole life, the one I would like to thank most is my brother," And in this happy occasion, in front of the crowd, tears were rolling down my face again.

Love and care for the one you love every single days of your life.
You may think what you did is just a small deed,
but to that someone, it may mean a lot.

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

Big Change in my office and work portfolio.

Today, in the late afternoon, my debuty CIO announced the change of Department structure, this is the 2nd changes in 2 years. This round is of greater scale than the last. 9 out of 19 persons (9 out of 15 if excluded managers) will be transferred to the outsourcing vendor. I understand this is unavoidable because of our IT job nature. I just hope that I am not in the list. But my job nature as a System Administrator and DBA is one of the most replacable job by vendors. The namelist will be announced tomorrow afternoon.

I think again, then I start to notice something,
1) I have done my performance appraisal in the morning with my boss. She did not hinted anything about change and even discuss on the future. How can I be in the plan if I am outsourced?
2) Not everyone have the chance to do a survey (Harrison Innerview), that may prove that the management is looking for people filling the new roles in the new organisation chart. I am one of the fortunate to be given the form.

After much thoughts, I think I will be staying. That is confirmed in the evening when my boss called. But I will have a totally new portfolio. I think I may be assigned to research work on New Technology to improve my organisation. That will be a challenge, but I like research and I will like to know more about my new portfolio. But this is my guess only, and will only know tomorrow.

I felt sad for those colleagues who will be outsourced. Although they will be with us till handover or even longer, I think I will miss them. Although I have learn the rule of detachment, I still felt some sadness. All the best, my dear colleagues.

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Add-on
Someone read my blog and spread this news, one of my ex-colleague is confused as she have 2 news, one saying I am out and my blog says I am in. She is so confused that she send a sms to me instead of another person (that is how I know someone is spreading rumour). Sigh... news spread fast, rumour is even faster.

Chat with God (Story)

God : Hello. Did you call me

Me: Called you? No.. who is this?

God : This is GOD.
I heard your prayers.
So I thought I will chat.

Me: I do pray. Just makes me feel good.
I am actually busy now.
I am in the midst of something.

God : What are you busy at?
Ants are busy too.

Me: Don't know.
But I cant find free time.
Life has become hectic.
It's rush hour all the time.

God : Sure. Activity gets you busy.
But productivity gets you results.
Activity consumes time.
Productivity frees it.

Me: I understand.
But I still can't figure out.
By the way,
I was not expecting YOU to buzz me on instant messaging chat.

God : Well I wanted to resolve your fight for time,
by giving you some clarity.
In this net era,
I wanted to reach you through the medium you are comfortable with.

Me: Tell me, why has life become complicated now?

God : Stop analyzing life.
Just live it.
Analysis is what makes it complicated.

Me: Why are we then constantly unhappy?

God : Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday.
You are worrying because you are analyzing.
Worrying has become your habit.
That's why you are not happy.

Me: But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?

God : Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional.

Me: But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty..

God : Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.

Me: If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?

God : Diamond cannot be polished without friction.
Gold cannot be purified without fire.
Good people go through trials, but don't suffer.
With that experience their life become better not bitter.

Me: You mean to say such experience is useful?

God : Yes. In every terms, Experience is a hard teacher.
She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.

Me: But still, why should we go through such tests?
Why cant we be free from problems?

God : Problems are Purposeful Roadblocks Offering
Beneficial Lessons (to)Enhance Mental Strength.
Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance,
not when you are free from problems.

Me: Frankly in the midst of so many problems,
we don't know where we are heading..

God : If you look outside you will not know where you are heading.
Look inside.
Looking outside, you dream.
Looking inside,you awaken.
Eyes provide sight.
Heart provides insight.

Me: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt,
more than moving in the right direction.
What should I do?

God : Success is a measure as decided by others.
Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you.
Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you rode ahead.
You work with the compass.
Let others work with the clock.

Me: In tough times, how do you stay motivated?

God : Always look at how far you have come,
rather than how far you have to go.
Always count your blessing,
not what you are missing.

Me: What surprises you about people?

God : When they suffer they ask, "why me?"
When they prosper, they never ask "Why me"
Everyone wishes to have truth on their side,
but few want to be on the side of the truth.

Me: Sometimes I ask, who am I, why am I here.
I cant get the answer.

God : Seek not to find who you are,
but to determine who you want to be.
Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here.
Create it.
Life is not a process of discovery but a process of creation.

Me: How can I get the best out of life

God : Face your past without regret.
Handle your present with confidence.
Prepare for the future without fear.

Me: One last question.
Sometimes I feel my prayers are not answered.

God : There are no unanswered prayers.
At times the answer is NO.

Me: Thank you for this wonderful chat.
I am so happy to start with a new sense of inspiration.

God : Well. Keep the faith and drop the fear.
Don't believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs.
Life is a mystery to solve not a problem to resolve.
Trust me. Life is wonderful if you know how to live.

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

Holiday Eve.

Today is a public holiday in Singapore.
Last night, I saw the movie 'The family stone'.
It is a very nice and positive movie. Every family have problems, some may have more. With love, everything will work out in the end. Happiness is just at the end of the tunnel waiting for you if you try.


Then, we went to Emerald Hill to have dinner and drinks. Unexpectedly, we are also having Ice-Cream. See the picture on the left, it is really nice and the portion is huge. We chatted a lot about worklife and our memorable university time.

I am really glad that last night the rain stopped for the night, it has been raining for 4 days with only a few short intervals.

Thursday, January 05, 2006

My first blog in 2006

I have not posted anything since the new year.
Have been quite active. Still trying to adjust back to office work life since returning from trip and enjoyed a super long holiday due to clearing leaves.

In the first few days of 2006.
Some interesting days that I did.
1) attended a new year gathering at Eden's friend home, and we play the game 'Cashflow'
2) completed my basic golfing course and play in real golf course for the first time.
3) watched 'A Chinese Tall Story', really like Charlene Choi's Angel Image in the movie.

Saturday, December 31, 2005

A new year.

The new year will begin in 2 hrs.
What did I do?
I only watch the 'independant day' for the 4th time. It is a movie I like and inspiring. I also have a couples of drink to go with it. Enjoying life that is. I do not like to mix with big crowd on festive day as always. Doing things I like at home is fine with me.

'Today, we celebrate independant day!'.

Happy new year to all of you, it does not matter whether I know you or meet you before. Happy new year to you and may all have a wonderful and peaceful year!

Cheers!

Friday, December 30, 2005

A cocktail session

Today, Totoro visited. We are both clearing leaves.
We have a cocktail session after lunch at my home.


See our spread. Hahaha, the beauty of cocktail is mixing to create. So, different kinds of drink are needed.


This is 'Singapore Sling'


This is 'Long Island Tea', but Silver Tequila is replaced by brandy as I am short of Silver Tequila (Gold Taquila is easily available in shops but not Silver Taquila). The taste is just not right with the replacement.


This is 'Last Goodbye', this one tastes the best so far.


This is 'Gin Tonic'. One of the standard housepours.


This is 'Prinaha'.

There go my afternoon on leave. I did my housecleaning in the morning. Haha, seems like spring cleaning for the new year.

Thursday, December 29, 2005

Review : Gifts of the year


It seems that a lot of fellow blogger are doing 2005 review of resolutions.
As 2005 is definately a very devastating year for me, I will not review my resolutions, instead I will review the gifts I received, because they means a lot to me. Not the value but the understanding and listening they showed.

1) It is not in the photo, it is a powerpoint slides tailor-make to give me encouragement. A show of Care.
2) A cocktail book, it is also not in the photo too as it is a big book. It shows me the power of listening. A mere hour of talk, if you really listen, you can really see a person.
3) A bible. It is about sharing. I am not into religion but I am glad of the gesture shown for sharing something about faith.
4) A cocktail shaker. This is a about trust. This gift shows that he knows me and he trust me that I am in control.
5) An engraved pen. This is from a Christmas Gift Exchange session. I have written 2 choices. Instead of going for the easy way out by granting my easy wish, a lot of effort is putting into getting the pen engraved as I wish. It is a show of friendship.

I am counting my blessing daily and I am at peace with myself and others. I appreciate all kindness rendered on me and will promise to do so to others too. That will be my new year resolution.

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

Cocktail : Mary Pickford

I got most of my glasses today. Now, I am only short of Red Wine, Shot and Tumbler glasses.

Today, I tried to make Mary Pickford.
1.5 measure of Light Rum
1.5 measure of Pineapple Juice
0.25 measure of Grenadine


Here is the product. Look great, taste good too.

Monday, December 26, 2005

Cocktail - Screwdriver


This is a Cocktail Drink - Screwdriver. It got its name because the worker who invented the drink use screwdriver as a stirrer. It consists of 2 measures of Vodka and 4 measures of Orange Juice. It is one of the simple cocktail. I should use a tumbler glass for it, but I have not got one yet, may be on Wednesday. It tastes good. Haha.

Cabling Headache


Talking about cabling, I also re-organise my computer desk, it looks neater now (If your do not look at the cabling below the desk).


With so much customisation for my PC, the cabling in it also looks like mess.
Haha, how I wish everything go wireless.

Migrated my Audio/Video Cabinet


At last, with one morning of effort, I have migrated my Audio/Video Cabinet. The older cabinet now store my DVDs and TVB Drama Series.


Although tried my best, I think the cabling organisation still can be further improve. Look at the thick bunch of 'noodle'. Sigh...

Sunday, December 25, 2005

Christmas Presents to myself


I am giving a bunch of lovely presents to myself this Christmas.

1) A cabinet for my wine, liqueor, cocktail tools, glasses and cocktail formulas
2) A cabinet for my Audio/Video Appliances
3) A Canon Photo Printer
4) A 80GB Pocket Harddisk
5) A DVD RW Drive for my Computer

The Photo above shows my liqueor cabinet, it still short of glasses, will be complete by the end of the month.

Also, I have yet to migrate my A/V applicance to the new Cabinet.

Thursday, December 22, 2005

Catch up with friends

Yesterday evening, the little gathering is just wonderful. I can't imagine we talked till 1.30am, it lasted more than 5 hrs! I guess we really have so much to catch up on each others since we our university time. I look forward to organise a little cocktail gathering at my home soon. See you again then. Merry Christmas!

Do You Have a Type A Personality?





You Have A Type B+ Personality



B+





You're a pro at going with the flow
You love to kick back and take in everything life has to offer
A total joy to be around, people crave your stability.

While you're totally laid back, you can have bouts of hyperactivity.
Get into a project you love, and you won't stop until it's done
You're passionate - just selective about your passions


Wednesday, December 21, 2005

No place like home.

Reached home 9 hrs ago.

Feel great, there is no place like home, even if it is empty, because it is the world which you can put down your mask and guard.

Monday, December 19, 2005

The musical 'Lestat'

The musical is good. Setting, cast, song, lyric, they are all good. The only problem is that it did not stir my heart as much as some other musical. The second half is much better than the first. There are a few songs that stand out of the others, I personally like 'Sail me away', 'I want more', 'I'll never have that chance' and 'the crimson kiss'. Allison Fischer (as Cludia) sang exceptionally well in my opinion. Still, I will say it is a good show and worth very much watching, at least it is far better than 'RENT'.

Sunday, December 18, 2005

In San Francisco City and another Musical


Before noon, I reached Orchard Hotel in San Francisco. After check-in, the 1st thing to do it log on to internet and search for Musical Performance. Great, Currran Theatre, a musical Theatre near the hotel will be having the world Premier of 'Lestat' tonight. This is the 1st performance and also consider to be pre-Broadway performance. (It will be shown in New York Boradway only from 17 Aoril 06). Rushing to the box office in the rain, which is a few blocks away, I bought tomorrow evening ticket. (tonight, it left only seats with restricted view). Next, I went to Border Bookstore to buy some Christmas Gifts for my friends and colleagues.

Here is a short synosis for the Musical :
"Lestat, one of Anne Rice's most celebrated literary characters, is being brought to the stage in the first-ever collaboration of the legendary team of Sir Elton John (music) and Bernie Taupin (lyrics) on a Broadway production," according to the Curran. "Based on characters and incidents from Ms. Rice's best-selling novels, 'Interview with the Vampire' and 'The Vampire Lestat,' the book is by Linda Woolverton and Robert Jess Roth directs."
Lestat "is the lush and rich story of a man who escapes the tyranny of his oppressive family only to have his life taken from him. Thrust into the seductive and sensual world of an immortal vampire, Lestat tries to reconcile his innate sense of good with his primal need to exist."

Saturday, December 17, 2005

Invitations

Tonight, I have 2 unexpected invitations.

The 1st is my SF colleague invited me to a small Christmas gathering with our sister agencies in San Francisco. We have a small buffet there and I won a Crystal Bowl from Tiffany & Co from the lucky draw, I am kind of embarrass as I only just met most of them. But well, it is just my luck, I guess.

Then, this SF colleague invited me to her church which is having a performance tonight by Ray An Fuentes. The performance and messages delivered are good. It is a memorable evening.

10.27pm 16 Dec 2005(SF Time)

My Personality

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4 wives (Story)

The four " wives " in our lives

Once upon a time there was a rich King who had four wives.
He loved the 4th wife the most and adorned her with rich robes and
treated her to the finest of delicacies. He gave her nothing but the
best.

He also loved the 3rd wife very much and was always showing her off to
neighboring kingdoms. However, he feared that one day she would leave
him for another.

He also loved his 2nd wife. She was his confidant and was always kind,
considerate and patient with him. Whenever the King faced a problem, he
could confide in her, and she would help him get through the difficult
times.

The King's 1st wife was a very loyal partner and had made great
contributions in maintaining his wealth and kingdom. However,
he did not love the first wife. Although she loved him deeply,
he hardly took notice of her !

One day, the King fell ill and he knew his time was short.
He thought of his luxurious life and wondered, "I now have four wives
with me, but when I die, I'll be all alone."

Thus, he asked the 4th wife, "I have loved you the most, endowed you
with the finest clothing and showered great care over you. Now that I'm
dying, will you follow me and keep me company?" "No way!", replied the
4th wife, and she walked away without another word. Her answer cut like
a sharp knife right into his heart.

The sad King then asked the 3rd wife, "I have loved you all my life. Now
that I'm dying, will you follow me and keep me company?"

"No!", replied the 3rd wife. "Life is too good! When you die, I'm going
to remarry!"

His heart sank and turned cold.

He then asked the 2nd wife, "I have always turned to you for help and
you've always been there for me. When I die, will you follow me and keep
me company?"

"I'm sorry, I can't help you out this time!", replied the 2nd wife. "At
the very most, I can only walk with you to your grave." Her answer
struck him like a bolt of lightning, and the King was devastated.

Then a voice called out: "I'll go with you. I'll follow you no matter
where you go."

The King looked up, and there was his first wife. She was very skinny as
she suffered from malnutrition and neglect.

Greatly grieved, the King said, "I should have taken much better care
of you when I had the chance!"

In truth, we all have the 4 wives in our lives:
Our 4th wife is our body. No matter how much time and effort we
lavish in making it look good, it will leave us when we die.

Our 3rd wife is our possessions, status and wealth. When we die, it will
all go to others.

Our 2nd wife is our family and friends. No matter how much they have
been there for us, the furthest they can stay by us is up to the grave.

And our 1st wife is our Soul. Often neglected in pursuit of wealth,
power and pleasures of the world. However, our Soul is the only thing
that will follow us wherever we go. Cultivate, strengthen and cherish it
now, for it is the only part of us that will follow us throughout Eternity.

Friday, December 16, 2005

No Flight Home.


Although I have book my flights since 3 weeks ago, yet I could not get a flight in this time from SF to Hong Kong, although Hong Kong to Singapore is confirmed. Sigh... (Christmas Season is the main reason)

The only next available flight is on Monday, which is 3 days later than planned.
The Colleagues stationed in SF are very nice (although demanding), they planned to relocate me to SF city, so that I can enjoy the weekend while waiting for the flight. (Our SF Office is in Redwood City, beside the Head Quarter of Oracle.)

Unfortunately, my boss encountered difficulties in Chicago, and the users there prefer me to fly back to assist them. Frankly speaking, the problem they have is not in my area, and I could not help them much even if I am there. They just need someone from the IT department to feel better and I happen to be in US. Well, I do not mind if I can help, since my boss has been very nice to me.

So, in short, nothing is confirm. My next flight, my next destination.....

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

Happy Birthday, Sunshine (Voice of me)


This may be a year that given a choice you will not want, I know. But it has came nonetheless, so make the best out of it. This year you have learn a lot, I am sure, but there is a lot to learn and practise. Keep it up, do not be disappointed and sad anymore. If nobody around, there is still me. Love yourself, so as to be loved.

You woke up so early (7am in San Francisco) today, it is because you wanted to do this blog before the days ended in Singapore (it is 11.40pm in Singapore) and this is your birthday wish - To be happy. So how is your feeling of having your birthday in a foreign country working? Oh, busy working, but happy to see some friends wishing me through blog and Instant Messager, the feeling is good in general, and just 20 mins ago, a important friend wishes me too, I am so glad that it is still on time.

I will be happy, and next year when I review this blog, I should be able to say I am more happy now.

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

Musical 'Wicked - The Untold Story of the Witches of Oz'


This is definitely the best musical I have seen recently. It is humorous and touching at the same time. The setting, music and lyric are all of top quality.
The story involve
- Being different is not necessary always bad (the ‘wicked’ witch is born green and without friends, but she process intelligent and talented in sorcery)
- Being able to uphold your belief even if no one is behind you. (when the ‘wicked’ witch is being frame because she believe that animal should not ill treated, despite what everyone think)
- You can change others through your action and self sacrifice. (how the ‘wicked’ witch teaches the stuck-up girl to be a good witch in the end)
- Compassion (the love of animal)
- Things are not always as what you see. (the 'wicked' witch is most kind and being frame to be wicked)
- Love in the eye of the beholder (the prince was transformed to be a scarecrow, but still deeply in love with the ‘wicked’ witch)
- Friendship (the ‘wicked’ witch rather sacrifice herself than let the good witch risk her reputation in protecting her)

If you ever have a chance, go and see it, I am sure you will not regret it.

For more photos and story, see here.

Sunday, December 11, 2005

我一向都佷欣赏散文集写的blog.

今天看到他写的'魔术',甚有感触,在此记下,做为借镜.
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心理治療應該也是一場魔術表演。心理治療師會用他們的魔法把愚弄我們的情緒弄走。

我們便是我們的心理治療師﹐只要我們願意認同我們自己的情緒﹐和它們談談話﹐把那些我們不太願意重提的事件﹐一一的把它們找出來﹐細細的尋找一些我們可以學習的部份﹐放進我們的心裡。然後把餘下的放進一個氫氣球裡﹐讓它升空﹐看著它慢慢的消失在天空中。我相信﹐我們的心情便會好起來。

處理情緒不是逃避它﹐而是要面對它。

他没有错(歌)

歌手:范玮琪 歌曲:他没有错

就这样放了彼此的手
究竟是尽头还是个出口
只是我还记得他每一次抚摸
只是我还熟悉他每一个轮廓
不知道从此要难过多久
我相信一定和孤独一样久
原来天长地久是形容一种痛
这样的有始有终换来怎样的海阔天空
他没有错
只是没有爱我很久
他没有错
是我飞蛾扑火我求一个经过
不妄想一个结果 他没有错

他没有错
只是没有爱我停留
他没有错
是爱的不是时候
他没有错
只是没有陪我到最后

Out in the snow. Look forward for tomorrow night.


Today (still Saturday in Chicago), I worked with Vicki setting up the Network (wired and wireless) and the VoIP phones till 4pm. I asked her if there are good musical in Chicago? I have always love Musical! Great, a good broadway musical is in Town, 'Wicked'. After that, I braved the snow to get ticket (that is when I shoot this picture, the sky is so dark after 4pm, sigh...). Luckily for me, there are still tickets for individual seats. Those people in front is booking so many tickets (at least 5 tickets) and so advance booking (for shows at Jan - Mar 06). The show I have manage to secure will be on tomorrow at 7.30pm (Sunday). At least, there is something I can look forward now.

P.S. : Almost all outdoor decoration for Christmas is like that in US, kind of simple after seeing how Singapore's Orchard Road's Christmas Decoration'.

Saturday, December 10, 2005

Snow covered Chicago



This is a photo took from my hotel room (36th floor).

Friday, December 09, 2005

Wise Secretary and Snow Storm



Frankly, I did not really notice the important of getting a hotel so near office because the last round in March, I stayed in a hotel at the Magificiant Mile (shopping area). But I see the wisdom of our Chicago Secretary, Deborah, now. This year, the worst weather came earlier than usual and there is a snow storm outside now. Her choice of hotel has save me a great deal of problem, because it has a underground pass to reach my office. Today's work is quite smooth, compare to New York, so I can return to hotel at 5.30pm. By the way, the relocation workers has gone since 3pm, I wonder it is due to the snow storm. Oh yeah, their weather is so accurate. Shame on my home country, a small little island and yet the weather forecast is never accurate at all.

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

Who should paint my portrait

Edvard Munch





Edvard Munch should paint your portrait. You are a very emotional person. You are always up for a good talk with one of your friends. You don't like to keep things bottled up. Often, you are friendly and outgoing, but that can change very easily to being introverted and cold.


Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

Work done. Next Stop -> Chicago



New York, job done. (Picture - New York this morning)

In Chicago now, not feel like going out, because it is freezing cold at -7 degree celsius now.

Monday, December 05, 2005

The flight to New York


Second visit to New York this year. Not much changes, but it is very much colder now and snow can be seen and the sky goes dark very very early.

The flight tooks arounnd 19 hrs in total, excluding 2 hrs transit waiting in Tokyo.

I watched 3 movies on the flight other than eating, sleeping and playing with my laptop.
1) Fanastic 4
2) Charlie and the Chocolate Factory
3) Cindrella Man

I quoted from 'Fanastic 4'
Alicia (blind girl) told 'the Thing', 'being different is often not a bad thing'.
I wanted to believe that.

I quoted from 'Charlie and Chocolate Factory'
Willie Wonka asked Charlie, 'What make you feel better when you feel terrible?'
Charlie answered 'Family.'
There isn't a better answer, is there?

I quoted from 'Cindrella Man'
Jim tell the press, 'I know what I am fighting for now... Milk'
Milk symbolise the need of the family, so simple, straight forward and powerful.

I will be going to work in 12 hrs time.
Time to rest to adjust myself from any possible jet lag.

Saturday, December 03, 2005

8 hrs before Leaving Singapore

It is less than 8 hrs before leaving Singapore.
The flight is at 7.15am. Will need to wake up at 4.30am.
The 1st destination is New York, transit at Tokyo.
Suddently, I felt very peaceful at leaving everything behind.
Not really everything, I do brought some blessing (gifts) with me for this journey.
:-)

3 Birthday Gifts from colleagues


I just received another 3 Birthday gifts, all from my colleagues.
But they are all regarding life, I guess everyone is seeing me as a person that still have not gone out of the shadow yet. Perhaps they are right, looking from their angle, they do have a clearer picture of me. Thanks and I really appreciate them, I will try to be happy, and I mean naturally happy.

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

A song - Friends

As requested by Corinne, here is your song placed online.
Cheers!

Monday, November 28, 2005

A quote from 'happiness in a nutshell'

Recently, one of my friend tell me not to be too attached to people. I guess I am, but I learnt.

The following is a quote on 'Attachment' from the booklet 'Happiness in a NutShell' by Andrew Mattews.

The moment you get
too attached to things,
people, money...
you screw it up

The challenge of life
is to appreciate everything
and attach yourself
to nothing

Sunday, November 27, 2005

A Song for you.

A friend has fallen ill, she has request for this song last week, so I hereby present this song and wish her a speedy recovery. This song is 阿杜's 下雪.

Saturday, November 26, 2005

A early Birthday Gift



I watch the 2 musicals with my UK classmate, Florence, who also loved Musical. She is also having problem looking for friend to watch musical. Great, now you have partner to watch musical! On Wednesday, while watching ' a twist of fate', I mentioned that I am trying to mix cocktail and just now before watching 'RENT', I received my early birthday present from her (My birthday is in Dec, and I should be working in San Francisco during that time this year), it is a book on cocktail, what a great listener! I am deeply touched by attention and sensitiveness shown by her. Thanks, Florence.

Musicals

I have always loved Musicals since studying in UK. I have the opportunity this year to enjoy 2 musicals in this week. One a local production and another a Broadway production.



‘A Twist of Fate’ is a local production and it is also the 3rd time it is presented in Singapore before performing at the Broadway. It is Voted Best Musical of 1997 by The Straits Times.

Stars Laura Michelle Kelly (Mary Poppins - Laurence Olivier Award Best Actress 2005). Appearing on stage with Ms Kelly will be an all star Singaporean and international cast, including accomplished theatre actor and MediaCorp artiste, Adrian Pang.

Lyrics by Laurence Olivier Award winner Anthony Drewe (who has just written the lyrics for Disney/Cameron Mackintosh's production of Mary Poppins, currently on in the London West End), and music by Singapore's foremost composer Dick Lee. Book by Steven Dexter and Tony Petito.

In the tradition of Agatha Christie and the great "whodunits" of the 1930s, A Twist of Fate is a delicious musical comedy of twists and turns, false clues and dastardly deeds, set against the backdrop of a Peranakan family in Singapore. Dark and stormy nights, midnight rendezvous, an inconvenient murder or two and memorable times makes this an entertaining, suspense-filled evening at the theatre.

I enjoyed the show very much since it is a very localise performance and I really did not manage to guess the murderer. It is really fun!



On the other hand, ‘RENT’ is a Broadway Production that sweep all major theatre awards, including 1996 Tony Award for Best Musical as well as the Pulitzer Prize, RENT captures the heart and spirit of a generation. Inspired by Puccini’s La Boheme, RENT is a joyous, breathtaking and often heartbreaking musical that celebrates a community of young artists as they struggle with the soaring hopes and tough realities of today’s world. This is its 10th Anniversary World Tour starring Karen Mok.

This performance is consist of various performance like heavy metal, sentimental, Tango, etc. Overall, I think it is a bit heavy on the music and volume, unlike Les Miserable and Phantom of the Opera, but the 2nd part of the show is very nice and Karen did performed well. Songs like 'Season of love' and 'Light my candle' is very nice indeed.

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

Mixed Feeling Yesterday

Yesterday, some dumb users deleted production data, thinking they are at test environment, and yet they can yell saying the test environment did not have a BIG word saying it is test environment.
If a test environment does not match the production environment, then can it still be a test environment? Why blame it on the IT team? then, they can call and yell, 'Hey, I have been waiting! when do you finish restoring the data? I still have work to do!'.
I returned my 'fire' for the following Legal Reasons.
1st) Restoration Request not raised
2nd) So, it is not approved
3rd) depend on whether the tape is offsite, we may have to get them back
4th) According to Our service level agreement, restoration will be done in 2 days.
Although, in the end, I still help them restore the data in 4 hrs. What I hated it so much, is that you have work, so am I! And their dumb action caused me to waste my previous time and disrupted my work and yet they can yell.
I am so angry, but when I think twice, why angry, it only hurt myself, cool down and be happy. Yeah, I choose to be happy everyday, right?

Due to this dirty work, I missed a birthday celebration session in the office. What warm my heart is that my colleagues do care.
1) My neighbour colleague 'P' bring me nuts and nogart
2) My Project partner 'KH' brought me cake, knowing that I miss it because of his users.
3) My far away colleage 'C' reserved pancake and drinks for me.
They make my day.
I am a person who will remember who is kind to me and if I can, I will return the favour and more whenever I can.
I also learn to release myself from anger, because anger will bring us down and the people you dislike does not even feel it or feel bad about your feeling.

Yes, I choose to be happy everyday.

Saturday, November 19, 2005

2 Movies a day

It is far passed midnight, so it is yesterday that I watched 2 movies.


In the morning, I watched 'Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire'. A exciting adventure full or mythical creature and wonderful special effect. This is the forth in the series and I will say it has done well, but I regret the death of Cedric in the movie, he is such a fine young man and friend with a bright future.


In the late evening, I watched 'Just like Heaven'. A sweet romantic movie about a doctor Elizabeth (Reese Witherspoon) who is so committed to work that she can work 26hrs in one shot, but when she meet an accident and the spirit left the body, she discover that no one actually know about her because she have no life other than work. She can only communicate with the man, David (Mark Ruffalo), who rented her apartment while she is coma. Of course, finally, she learn what life and love should be, and he learn to love again (since his wife's death).

Dinner.



I have dinner at 'Manhattan Fishmarket' at Plaze Singapura, the seafood platter for 2 tasted good, right, buddy?

Thursday, November 17, 2005

Care

The following is a translation of the Chinese version written by SanWenJi.
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To everyone that I will like to share,

It feels great that we can care for others. What I mean of 'care' is the ability to acknowledge and share other people's unhappiness. When we grow, the ability weakened. We will be glad to have dinner and drinks with others, but who is willing to listen to your life story?

If there is such a person around you, please kindly treasure him/her. You must understand the sacrifice that he/she made, because by listening, he/she is sharing your feeling or burden, no less than you.

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This week, I miss talking (real talking, from the bottom of my heart) to a very good friend that really care for me, because I am not sure whether I have annoyed him/her, if I did, I am really sorry.

A Wise Donkey (Story)

One day a farmer's donkey fell down into a well. The animal cried piteously for hours as the farmer tried to figure out what to do. Finally he decided that is was not worth retrieving the donkey as the animal was old, and the well needed to be covered up anyway.

He invited his neighbours to come over and help him. They each grabbed a shovel and began to shovel dirt into the well. At first, the donkey realised what was happening and cried horribly. Then, to everyone's amazement, it quietened. A few shovel loads later, the farmer looked down the well and was astonished at what he saw.
As every shovel of dirt hit his back, the donkey did something amazing. It would shake it off and take a step up. As the farmer's neighbours continued to shovel dirt on top of the animal, it would shake it off and take a step up. Pretty soon, the donkey stepped up over the edge of the well and trotted off to everyone's amazement!

Life is going to shovel dirt on you...all kinds of dirt. The trick to getting out of a hole is to shake it off and take a step up. Each of our troubles is a stepping stone. We can get out of the deepest holes just by never giving up! Shake it off and take a step up!

当你孤单你会想起谁



你就是这个笑脸吗?

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

愛自己

Borrowing some words from my fellow bloggers to remind myself.

被人愛前﹐先要愛自己。就是因為別人的愛沒有了自己﹐就是不愛自己的表現。

不愛自己的人是愛不起的....

我們都在我們的生命中學習,互相分享就是愛。

Monday, November 14, 2005

但愿长醉不愿醒

李白:《将进酒》

君不见黄河之水天上来,奔流到海不复回。
君不见高堂明镜悲白发,朝如青丝暮成雪。
人生得意须尽欢,莫使金樽空对月。
天生我材必有用,千金散尽还复来。

烹羊宰牛且为乐,会须一饮三百杯。
岑夫子,丹丘生,将进酒,杯莫停。
与君歌一曲,请君为我侧耳听。
钟鼓馔玉不足贵,但愿长醉不愿醒。
古来圣贤皆寂寞,惟有饮者留其名。

陈王昔时宴平乐,斗酒十千恣欢谑。
主人何为言少钱,径须沽取对君酌。
五花马,千金裘,呼儿将出换美酒, 与尔同销万古愁。

Thursday, November 10, 2005

Sense of belonging?

Is sense of belonging so important to you?
why are you so upset for not being invited?
Do you need to prove your worth in such a way?
Do you need to prove anything at all?

What you did is wrong today! Although apology accepted, the guilt will not leave you tonight, you will not sleep in peace. The guardian angel will not be there tonight, if you can sleep at all.

Learn well your lesson, you spoil your day and you spoil others too.
Do not do that again although you are upset.

Remember, you are who you are. You do not rely on someone to prove your worth, in fact, You need not prove anything at all.

I thought you have make it, you have make me rethink about this. You better buck up.

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

EARTH from above - Yann Arthus-Bertrand



In the last century, the population of our planet has been multiplied by 3, the world fresh water consumption by 6.
20% of the world population lacks access to improved water supplies.
40% of the world population does not have access to electricity.
Every week, more than 1 million people are added to the urban population in the world.
826 million people are under-nourished in the world.
The amount of oil consumed in 6 weeks, half of which is used in transportation, would have lasted 1 year in 1950.
Total world military expendititure : US$839 billion
Official Development Assistance : US51.4 billion
11 of the 15 majot fishing zones in the world are in decline today.
Half of humanity lives on less than US$2 a day.

The above are just some of the messages that was delivered through the photo exhibition by French Photographer, Yann Arthus-Bertrand.

Our Planet Earth is beautiful, but it is endangered due to human oversight and folly.
Save the earth, before it is too late.

Ugly Scene on Earth : IRAQI TANK GRAVEYARD IN THE DESERT NEAR AL-JAHRAH, KUWAIT

















Beautiful Scene on Earth : ICEBERGS OFF THE ADELIE COAST, ANTARCTICA

















Lovely Scene on Earth : GREATER FLAMINGOS ON LAKE NAKURU, KENYA

Monday, November 07, 2005

I am indeed blessed !



Today, my dearest colleague presented me a powerpoint she make herself. She wanted me to know I am blessed and consider very fortunate. I have seen the verses before, and in fact I have been searching for this verses a few nights ago, trying to cheer up a fellow blogger who is also and still living in sadness. I am most touched by her act, also knowing that she have spent a lot of effort on it, evening selecting the right song for it. I am convinced, I am indeed blessed.

I hereby shared the verses with all of you :

You Are Blessed


If you woke up this morning with more health than illness,
you are more blessed than the million who won't survive the week.

If you have never experienced
the danger of battle,
the loneliness of imprisonment,
the agony of torture or
the pangs of starvation,
you are ahead of 20 million people around the world.

If you attend a church meeting without fear of harassment,
arrest, torture, or death,
You are more blessed than almost three billion people in the world.

If you have food in your refrigerator,
clothes on your back,
a roof over your head and
a place to sleep,
you are richer than 75% of this world.

If you have money in the bank,
in your wallet, and
spare change in a dish someplace,
You are among the top 8% of the world's wealthy.

If your parents are still
married and alive,
you are very rare,
especially in the United States.

If you hold up your head
with a smile on your face
and are truly thankful,
You are blessed because the majority can, but most do not.

If you can hold someone's hand,
hug them or even
touch them on the shoulder,
you are blessed because you
can offer God's healing touch.

If you can read this message,
you are more blessed than over two billion people in the world that cannot read anything at all.

火炬星



1. 命格优势:充满活力、乐观进取。
2. 命格缺点:欠缺耐性、情绪起伏大。
3. 爱情模式:爱就是要让对方知道!
4. 财  运:85分,勇於冒险,理财很灵活。
5. 上班 运:85分,很有冲劲,颇受注目。
6. 您的信念:我就是相信人生就是要有理想、有抱负。

姓名星座属於 火炬星
命宫代表数字: 3、13、23、33、43、53、63、73

五行属性 火
姓名星座属性 开 朗 、 有 活 力 、 热 心 、 但 定 性 不 佳
代表人物 梁朝伟、翁大铭
星座优点 活 泼 、 开 朗 、 热 心 助 人 、 非 常 有 雄 心 、 拼 命 七 次 郎。
星座缺点 没 耐 性 、 情 绪 起 伏 大 、 决 策 不 精 细 。
人生信念 人 生 苦 短 , 及 时 行 乐 。
爱情 IQ 90 分
爱情模式 有 花 堪 折 直 需 折 、 莫 待 无 花 空 折 枝 !
爱情速配对象 地 牛 星 、 孤 木 星 、 己 土 星 女 性
爱情欢喜冤家 巨 浪 星 、 火 炬 星 女 性

Saturday, November 05, 2005

Happiness is ...

"Happiness is a daily decision. Everyone suffers pain and disappointment and no one will be happy 24 hours a day. The question is, how quickly do we bounce back from disappointment?" ~ Andrew Mattews

Five Strategies for happiness :
1. Be flexible. If things don't go your way, tell yourself, "I wouldn't have chosen this situation but I will try to make the most of it."
2. Look for good things in people - and you will find them.
3, Break your goals into small steps. Achieve one step at a time and you will reach your big goals.
4. Understand that worry doesn't help. Worrying about tomorrow doesn't help. Do your best today and let tomorrow take care of itself.
5. Each day when you get up, tell yourself,"Just today I choose to be happy."

Watch 'Sky High'



I watched another movie alone last night (now is after midnight, so it is last night). It is 'Sky High', a very relaxing show about a high school training super heroes. It is definately not a serious movie, but I have enough of 'heavy' firms recently. So, why not? It is funny and quite unique in its story and setting, although predictable. I have a enjoyable evening, although it is again nobody seating beside me. Looking at the bright side, the better, no one challenge me for the arm rest. Haha, 'Ah Q's spirit'? may be. It lighten my mood and ease my stress, that is more important, isn't it? Yeah, I told myself.

Thursday, November 03, 2005

I am reverting back to myself

6 and half months have passed since that painful day.

The pain is beginning to subside and numbed now. I started to reliase that I am slowly reverting to my old self.

Letting her have her ways, I have make numerous changes before, now I discovered that I am reverting back to my own personal habits, those I am used to.
Some of the habits :
1) HairStyle : She have always wanted me to keep my hair rather short, now I am back to side parting hairstyle (have not done that in last 5 years), occasionally, I will gel a spiky hairstyle too. I have had my length of hair back now.
2) I used to wear pyjamas when going to sleep, she have wanted me to wear shorts.
3) Now I am folding socks into rolls, she used to ask me folding them 'Squarely'.
and a few others...

Am I beginning to get use to it? I believe so, although she still appear in my mind occassionally, the image is getting less clear now. I have not seen her for months, other than photos, do I really wanted to forget her? I don't know.

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

Sudoku



I saw this Sudoku this morning, remembering the one I did recently from the blog, I am excited. Unfortunately, this one is far too simple, solved it in less than half an hours.