Dear, I have
decided to take a break from our relationship. Recently, especially this year,
we are not communicating anymore. You are always busy with your classes, family
issue and work. I am not longer involving and no longer needed. I am feeling
distanced and disconnected. We are communicating minimally by text and meet up
merely 2 hours per week. It is no longer enough to stay in healthy
relationship. I had feedback repeatedly on this. I understand that this is a
tough period for you. But I am no longer happy, we used to do things together
and now we no longer do so. I wrote this with great difficulty and I have tried
to get your response and attention, but sadly I do not see changes. I no longer
know details of your life, I do not know your class schedule, your baking
business plan, etc. we no longer go for walk together, watch video/movie
together, play games, visit performances, exercise, or shopping together. Covid
19 may be a factor, but not entirely. I am drained waiting for your
availability and impromptu dinner. I tried to enjoy every little moment with
you but it is never enough. I am sorry but I have to take a break.
I know this period
is tough for you, with the family drama, etc. But I do not understand my
priority is losing to baking classes. You are willing to spend weekend at
friend’s house experimenting baking but not spending time with me. You have
menopause and not feeling well, but it has been too long. Menopause cannot be
use as an excuse of not spending time together and I will care for you. I have waited you for years, giving you time to get use to the symptoms, but the more I give way the
more I am losing you. Do you know that when I say "I love you" to you, your
respond is mostly half hearted? May be you did not feel it, but I guess you do
know that you did not initiate that 3 words for a very long time already. While
your family rejected me and my mom now telling me she is sad seeing I am
treated in this way. We are no longer having blessings from our families now.
I am getting far
too many signals that you have changed, became complacent that I will always be
there, waiting for your calls and have dinner upon your request. Sorry to say,
not really, I do have feelings, and so I have repeatedly trying to get your
attention that I am not happy. But sadly things are still the same. I have
given enough benefits of doubt to you, requesting for improvement and waiting for it to happen, and I have reached my threshold. I appreciated your
companionship for 10 years and 5 months, it is a long time we had together, let
us be friends again while you sort out your problems and your feelings, and not
having any obligation to me. I believe this will help both you and me. We need
this break, this cool down period.
