Hong Kong Trip is near.

I will be visiting Hong Kong on Saturday, leaving Singapore at 3pm and will return on the subsequent Friday very early morning.

I look forward for the break very much, but on the other hand, with the newly started project, I do like to keep it monitor closely at this critical stage. Now I am thinking whether to bring my laptop along or not.

Also, I will be miss the Saturday's Disaster Recovery Exercise and Monday's 'meet the new Chairman' session. Will have to get more details when I am back.

Busy but exciting

It seems like some energy is coming back now, mainly due to projects are starting at the same time.

Mobile mail solution will require me to produce a business case to MD, and check with various sister agencies for tapping on their experience with solutions they are using.

Enterprise Search project may have some changes, it seems hardware are secure for proof-of-concept, but vendor may be more than one for trial. Hope fully, this does not mess up the plan too much.

Enterprise Backup Project is moving, thanks to my powerful operation manager. Schedule are tight but it is moving a last. One more person has been drafted in to backup the main person-in-charge who is also the bottleneck due to his heavy workload. DR server upgrade will postpone by 1 day to faciliate the Disaster Recovery Drill on next Saturday.

And I am suppose to evaluate Microsoft Sharepoint, checking the feature for Document management, portal and search area. Another new product to work on.

It is going to be more exciting now, but hopefully, I can shoulder them. At least, I felt I am working again.

Feeling needed

Today is a satisfying day.
It has been a long while since I feel I am needed in work

The Mobile Mail Project is getting a lot of response now.
Admin and ICM is also helping out.
There are a lot of activities to get the trial handsets, susidarised data plans, and the solution moving with solution and internal vendors.

I have also made significant clarification in my role and targets today with boss.

Hopefully, things will get better.

Miserable work

I felt very depress now, for work again, of course.

Submited a Ops paper (the 3rd time on the same topic) successfully. Shoule be happy right? No, although it is vetted and support by my big Boss, a manager says that I am inviting questions.

Questions is fine, right? Everyday, we ask question to get thing going.
But I guess it is not fair for her to answer all these questions when she attend the meeting representing the department.

As for a existing project, I am totally losing it. I lost control on making the team work according to plan, and control how things flow. Basically, I think I have no leadership at all.

Feel tiny now, low self esteem, loosing faith.

I am not sure how long I can continue in this new role anymore.
But I am sure everywhere and everyday such things is happening.

It is not my 1st day out working, why am I feeling so bad?
I am taking it so hard and personal now, I must calm down and re-organise again.