Meaningful words (1)

Today, I received some pictures with meaningful words,
I will share you on the following days.

Be brave to take on Challenge.

Happy birthday. Alex.

Happy Birthday, Alex.

The Keys to My Heart

I just did a personality quiz on the web, and here is the result.

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Thanks for the MSN chat, SL.

SL, really appreciate our chat just now, you have inspired me. You have left your home country and stay here alone for five years already. And I only have been alone for half a year. May be I just have not get use to it. I just have to love myself more. Thanks.

This morning, I watched the final episode of ‘学警雄心’, I am touched. It included all the emotions of 生离, 死别, 成功, 失败, 拥有, 失去. Everyone will have to go through all this, but please do not come all at once. One cannot handle so much at once. Take it easy, I shall.

Two of my best friends will be having have birthday this month. I look forward to tell you ‘Happy birthday, 生日快乐’.

是你变了吗

After the bowling session with dad, he asked me to send his regard to you.
I do not know what to say, 是我不好？　还是你变了吗？

无印良品 - 是你变了吗
作词：林慧思作曲：光良
真想和你聊一聊天
很想看看你温柔的容颜
多想听你说自己并没有变
很想看我们从前的照片
多想和你再接近一点
你现在的心是靠在谁的身边
是你变了吗我的影子笑我的人好傻
是你变了吗我已经跟不上你的步伐
是你变了吗对你的感觉应该停止吧
已经不明白你的想法已经不再看见你眼中的牵挂
真想和你聊一聊天
很想看看你温柔的容颜
努力说服自己你没有变
很想看我们从前的照片
多想和你再接近一点
你现在的他是否真已从心所愿
是你变了吗我的影子笑我的人好傻
是你变了吗我已经跟不上你的步伐
是你变了吗对你的感觉应该停止吧
已经不明白你的想法已经不再看见你眼中的牵挂

A day on leave

Today, I am on leave.
It is cleaning day. After 3.5 hrs of mopping, ironing, etc... Phew... it is done.
After this blog, I will go for lunch (yummy), back to office to clear some work. Sigh, since Reginald left, I have no backup to fall upon. Then I will go for a swim at Mount Faber SAFRA Club. As promised, I will meet my dad for bowling after the swim.

Not very eventful huh? Well, I got to clear leaves anyway, I did not plan for any holiday for this year end and I think I still got around 9 days to clear. So, why not? take a break.

Hope the afternoon sun is good, I will like some tanning.

Today, be happy and no worry. No. not only today, it should be everyday...

Tonight - Table Tennis and Debate

Tonight, the 3 of us practice table tennis again. No other players from other department came. We have the table for ourselves. I won 16 out of 18 sets (11 balls). I lack fury and momentum. I am not moving enough. May be it is due to frequent changes of opponent (the loser will rotates). When 1 left, the 2 of us have more serious practice, playing full 21 balls match. This time, I am at my best, winning 5 straight sets, move a lot and attack with great fury (狮子搏兔,全力以赴). If I can maintain this level of play, I will be happy. I prefer playing singles, instead of double. Preferring to rely on myself, am I anti-social? I hope not.

Reaching home, it is almost 9.30pm. After bathing, I turn on my recorded program on debate. It is a Hong Kong University vs a Taiwan University. Such enough, the best speaker 黄执中 from Taiwan performed very well, he spoke in a calm and clear way, support with powerful examples. It is a close fight as the debate title does not favour either side, it is ‘专才比通才更吃得开’. I predict that Taiwan will win 3 to 2 votes. Unfortunately, it is the other way, Hong Kong won 3 to 2 votes. It will be Hong Kong vs China for the next round. It is good match, but the starting is poor, both side’s first speaker stutter when they define the term and introduce their points and grounds, and they are referring to their notes far too frequently. They should have practice enough to speak smoothly without referring in such important matches.

It is late and I felt tired… to bed now…Sweet dream (to myself).

My dad and I

My dad called, he told me he is bored and do not know what to do.

My dad is always the 'head of the house', the king. Since the family formed, he is always the man in charge, but he is a tyrant. The only house rule he have is 'Whatever I say or I do, I am always right, and you must agree with me'.
We are living in fear under his shadow for more than twenty-five years. I remember well that I am not allowed to wear jean, because it project a 'gangster' image, same as having a haversack. I always wore pants and sling school bag. Anything I do wrong, I will be punished. His punishment is always mental torture, he will always take away things we love or introduce and forced us to do things we do not want. Any quarrel will not end within a week and are likely to last for weeks. He has no friends due to his character. He always says friends are meant to be used; only make friends if you can use them. What kind of teaching is this?

My mum is an orphan, she have no where to run, and she is always taking care of myself and my brother. She has always suffered dearly in our growth.

7 years ago, we can stand him no more. He objected to my courtship, due to my then girlfriend (my separated wife now) is not a Cantonese as who we are. This is absolutely absurd; she is at the very least a Chinese Singaporean. We left, we rented a house and stay together till my marriage and I got a Jumbo flat for my family, my mum and my brother staying together. I knew what he want, he always wanted me to married someone rich.

My mum and my brother don't want to talk to him anymore. I think it is fair. Although I still contact him as and when, as least to know that he is ok and I visited him at times too. At the very least, he is still my dad.

Today, he told me he is bored. I wanted to say, I am lonely and I am staying alone too. But I didn't. I did not tell him I am separated. I do not want him to know that I have family problem as he is now. What an irony, I left home for my marriage and now what I get is just an empty home as he. The difference is I do not know what I am wrong, and he knew exactly what is wrong but unable to change (my mum did tried to reunite with him for a year, but he goes back to square one).

I am on leave on Friday, I will be paying him a visit and we will go bowling together. I knew he is healthy; I am worried about his mental health, because he does not have friends as he hurt all his friends. He has hurt me badly too, undeniable but he is still my dad. He is still family.

Mo Cuishle

I am very sick in the afternoon, nobody noticed.
I felt my head is spliting apart, it must be due to insufficient sleep recently.
I am sorry I can't take care of you tonight, Russell, Mo Cuishle, 'My Darling, my blood'.

Setting a target

I just got my book, costed me S$134. Nowadays, books are really costly.
I will set myself a target to attain CCNA before the end of this year. That will leave me with 3 months to go for it. It is time to drop my novel, etc... back to study and focus my mind back to technical terms. Here I come.

A Song that touches me.

I will like to share a song that touches me.

歌曲：我真的受伤了
歌手：张学友

窗外阴天了 音乐低声了
我的心开始想你了

灯光也暗了 音乐低声了
口中的棉花糖也融化了

窗外阴天了 人是无聊了
我的心开始想你了

电话响起了 你要说话了
还以为你心里对我又想念了
怎麽你声音变得冷淡了
是你变了 是你变了

灯光熄灭了 音乐静止了
滴下的眼泪已停不住了

天下起雨了 人是不快乐
我的心真的受伤了

More Blogs? Welcome and Thanks for reading.

I notice more and more blogs are appearing. I begin to notice blogs from ex-colleagues, friends and former classmates too. If you have a blog, share with me.

I will also like to thanks all of you reading this blogs, especially the friends who cares for me, who tried to understand me. You are the best. Yesterday and Today, I knew 3 of you who have been following my blogs, I am so touched. Thanks you, if you have a blog too, share with me, I will definite follow too, if I have not already doing that.

Monday Red! not Blue.

Today, I wear a red shirt to work. I wish I have a bright and cheerful week ahead.
The reaction is mixed, most colleagues says it is nice and matching, but a male colleague says I look like a red packet. Do I look that bad? Well, I guess, to each his own, I need not care what other says, I live for myself, not for others.

The table tennis practice go well, we start our practice on time. I lack the fury I have last week, only manage to win 8 out of 9 matches. But I managed to return more attacks today, which I am very satisfy. I left early from the practice today, because I will met my friend to complete our promise to watch the movie 'Myth' together (refer to 'The ruined evening' posted last week).

I do not care what other says, but I appreciate the movie a lot. A lot of effort was put in for the good show. But I think the actress (a Korean) is beautiful but lacks character, she seems a doll. I could not feel the undying love that lasted hundreds of years. On the other hand, I felt the undying loyalty the soldier and the war horses has shown the general. I guess this is a man's movie, just like the TVB drama I am following, it is about police trainees. Guys will have better appreciation because we have went through similar training during our army days.

Upon returning home, I turn on my recorded program, the International Varsity Debate. It is between a Malaysia University against a China University. The theme is '好心必有好报'. From the beginning, I believe the opposition will win because it is much easier to prove that not all good deed will yield kind reward. Everyone should have experience that before, it is reality. But I agree that it will not stop us from doing good deeds because we will feel good, even with no rewards. As I predicted, the Opposition Team from China won 4 votes to 1. Actually, the Malaysian University has done a good job, it is just their luck to be proposition that is very disadvantage to them. Personally, I will choose the 4th Speaker from Opposition (徐纯) as the best speaker, the conclusion he made is totally outstanding. I will look forward for their finals. The DVD recorder did a wonderful job, produce great quality recording, digital is always better the analog, just as I have learn in my Poly class.

Thank you, I know you care.

I have read words for words in your Blog, those word on 'Life' will not be forgotton.

We will be growing through it.

Thank you, my friend.

My weekend Blog

It is the same for both nights, Yesterday and today, going to sleep after a drink.
What drink? XO + White Rum + Orange Juice.
It taste like long island tea, if you have try before.

But there is a different, my mum visit me today.
Guess she is worry I am lonely...
I am, but I can live with it, and look for things to do alone.

Today, we watched TVB drama the whole day, keeping each other accompanied.
The feeling of bonding.... it feels good...

Just before I write this blog, my friend yahoo me again, just before she leave the line.
The 2 lines she wrote is enough to cheer up my day, if you happen to read this, please drop me a note if you see me online if you think I am your friend. I will be grateful.

Once, I read a story from the book 'Chicken Soup of the soul'.
It wrote that a youngster is in great hunger and a women gave a glass of water to him.
After Twenty years later, the woman is poor and sick. The doctor did operations for her and helps her recover, she is no doubt very grateful to the doctor. She asked 'how can I ever replay you?". The doctor repliced "You have, the glass of water, twenty years ago' has paid for everything and more." This story has always touched me and always tell me that a bit of negligible effort from you can means a lot to the one in need.

I have installed my SCV today, I hope my boy will love it when he see it tomorrow. I will be fetching him tomorrow morning at 8.30am. I miss you, my son...
Sleep well, daddy will see you tomorrow...

Plans for the Weekend?

No plans at all. Any friends saw this? Call me if you need company?
Guess I will be watching VCD/DVD ("Million Dollar Baby" and "The Interpreter"), playing computer games, perhaps swimming, the last was sometime ago.

My ex-Colleague call last night, we will be arranging to attend the Air-Pistol course. We have attended the Air-Rifle Course last time. As the Air-Rifle is heavy and old, we don't practice much, Air Pistol will be much better.

I got my new glasses yesterday. It is very light and trendy, I like it much.

Today, I have setup most of the stuff for my DMD after his return, guess things will be fine. Phew.....

Tomorrow, may be I can start my study for CCNA, planned a week and no action is not like me huh? So, stop my fiction books and back to technical. Upgrading is one of the way to keep your job, especially IT.

Today's blog is quite unorganise, rite? Piece and pieces. Yeah, because my mind also in a mess.
Better have more exercise tonight to clear my mind and exhaust myself to sleep.

May I sleep well tonight. Oh, last thing, I hope your medical review is fine, you know who you are. :-)

A ruined evening

My friends of 21 years (since school days) asked me to a movie today. Unfortunately, during dinner, I received a call from my resigned colleague seeking help, a urgent migration. There go my plans... I felt sorry for my friend, have to 'fly kite'. How I wish to go for a movie or even a short window shopping. Well, it is reality, after a mere 5 minute work back in office, I am on my way home.

At my neighbourhood, I though of getting drypers for my 3 year olds. John Little Sale, right! I should have my discount voucher somewhere. Oh no, my boy has taken it on my table the other day, he must have threw it somewhere at his playing corner. Ouch, have to pay the usual price, no discount for me.

Tomorrow will be a quiet day, most of them will be on course. Nevermind, we will have special lunch tomorrow, I have something in mind, let me see whether it will work out tomorrow.

After days of rest, I have a speedy jog today, rather fast while listening to Cyndi's dancing songs on my MP3 players. I miss my table tennis session, the last was 5 days ago.

It is resting time now, enjoying Jacky's Snow.Wolf.Lake (Cantonese Version).
It is playing my favourite song in the musical - '花与琴的流星'.
This specific scene in the musical (8 years ago) is still fresh in my mind, what a brillant performance that night. Kit Chan is also singing at her best in the musical. '等了又等' is another beautiful song.

I hope there will be more musical coming to Singapore, else I can only see it in New York or London. Sigh....

My Lunch partners. Love live our friendship.

They are my lunch partners and friends.
Love live our friendship!

A farewell lunch

Today, we have lunch at Tonkichi, Suntec City. It is great to have lunch with such good lunch partners. But today is also a farewell lunch for a colleague. He does not talk much, which is a contrust compare with me. Though, we do not see thing eye to eye and our working style is totally different, but I still feel a bit sad to see him leaving the organisation. I wishes him having a good career and future in the new organisation.

After he leave, my friend and colleague KH will take over. He is a long time friend since 12 years ago and in a different organisation. We should be able to work effectively together. I will need his co-operation dearly this year end, to consolidate and migrate our application and database. I look forward to work with him again.

I just used the facial lotion recommended by my colleague during lunch time. I felt refreshed and cleanse after apply, it is effective. I am so glad.

Tomorrow, my DMD will be back in company and I am responsible to ensure that he feel at home for all his IT needs, it is going to be some hard works. Luckily, I have get ready the necessary guide and manual to setup the necessary equipment and software tomorrow. Hopefully, it will be a smooth transition.

Well, everyday have its challenge. We will be brave to face it. Come on.

A dear friend

My dear friend chat with me for 2 hrs just a while ago. I am sure she is very tired and in need of rest after 3 days of 'supervision', yet she did not stop encouraging and motivating me. A great friend indeed.

We chat on different subject, the recent rumor, religion, image and my failing relationship. Despite of the encouragement, I still cannot have enough to make the 1st step for reconciliation. I still have fear of being hurt again and deeper. I am sorry, may be I have disappointed you, but I do not want to bluff you by promising I will make the 1st move to reunite. I can't, the pain is still fresh and the wound new.

I have no doubt I can handle the pain currently, but to face the possible deeper hurt, I am not ready yet. Not sure if I will ever be ready.

Now I just wanted to have more great friends that care. I will care for them too. That is a promise.

I look forward for our planned lunch tomorrow and the facial product you will recommend. See you tomorrow, my friend, and thanks for your kind words and blessings.