Weight Loss Plan

After 2 months of exercising, I have lost 7kg.

4 more kg to reach my phase 1 target. And phase 2 will be another 8 kg.

I am walk/jog every evening (as long as I am not going out) for 5.8km, usually between 55min to 1 hr.

Diet has also changed.

I no longer take Carbohydrate, and mainly eating vegetables and meat only.

I only eat between 12 noon to 8pm. 

And I drink a lot of water now.

I think and I hope it is all worth it.

 

A painful note drafted for her... (24 Nov 2020)

Dear, I have decided to take a break from our relationship. Recently, especially this year, we are not communicating anymore. You are always busy with your classes, family issue and work. I am not longer involving and no longer needed. I am feeling distanced and disconnected. We are communicating minimally by text and meet up merely 2 hours per week. It is no longer enough to stay in healthy relationship. I had feedback repeatedly on this. I understand that this is a tough period for you. But I am no longer happy, we used to do things together and now we no longer do so. I wrote this with great difficulty and I have tried to get your response and attention, but sadly I do not see changes. I no longer know details of your life, I do not know your class schedule, your baking business plan, etc. we no longer go for walk together, watch video/movie together, play games, visit performances, exercise, or shopping together. Covid 19 may be a factor, but not entirely. I am drained waiting for your availability and impromptu dinner. I tried to enjoy every little moment with you but it is never enough. I am sorry but I have to take a break.

I know this period is tough for you, with the family drama, etc. But I do not understand my priority is losing to baking classes. You are willing to spend weekend at friend’s house experimenting baking but not spending time with me. You have menopause and not feeling well, but it has been too long. Menopause cannot be use as an excuse of not spending time together and I will care for you. I have waited you for years, giving you time to get use to the symptoms, but the more I give way the more I am losing you. Do you know that when I say "I love you" to you, your respond is mostly half hearted? May be you did not feel it, but I guess you do know that you did not initiate that 3 words for a very long time already. While your family rejected me and my mom now telling me she is sad seeing I am treated in this way. We are no longer having blessings from our families now.

I am getting far too many signals that you have changed, became complacent that I will always be there, waiting for your calls and have dinner upon your request. Sorry to say, not really, I do have feelings, and so I have repeatedly trying to get your attention that I am not happy. But sadly things are still the same. I have given enough benefits of doubt to you, requesting for improvement and waiting for it to happen, and I have reached my threshold. I appreciated your companionship for 10 years and 5 months, it is a long time we had together, let us be friends again while you sort out your problems and your feelings, and not having any obligation to me. I believe this will help both you and me. We need this break, this cool down period.

10 years and 5 months since my last post

Interesting... It has 10 years and 5 months since I last posted on blogspot. 

Looking as some of my links, noticed that most of my fellow bloggers also stopped blogging and many stopped in the same year. 

Suddenly, I feel like to write again. 

Most of the time I feel this way is that there is a change in my life, be it positive or negative. 

For this time, I don't know for sure. 

Many things changed in this period of time. 

My weight increased again (and more, ouch) and now is making effort to reduce again. 

It is always a cycle, right? lol 

More or less achieved financial stability, unless something serious happened (touchwood).
Work wise, not my ideal job for sure. But my boss treated me well. Cannot ask for more, especially during the Covid 19 period. 

Mom's health is stable, although minor issue with her eyes and joints, age is catching up on her. 

Quitted most mobile and computer games recently, spending my time to exercise, and some on reading, resting and accompanying my love ones.
If anyone still read blog and reading my blog, any recommended app for updating blog on iPhone?
Lastly reminding myself again, "活在当下“, live at the moment, worry lesser and enjoy life a bit more.

终于画下了句号....

三月二十七号上演,
五月十五号落幕,
一场生命里短暂的剧目终于结束了...

一开始就知道是这样的结局,
却还是灯蛾扑火般的去演,
热烈的燃烧生命,
直到最后.

虽然伤感,却没有后悔,没有遗憾.至少我曾经争取过.
得到的是难忘的回忆和感受,上进心的启发,和一位不可多得的知己.
虽然现在少了一些推动力,却没有完全失去,也肯定了自己的想法.

若然再来一次,我还是会作出同样的选择,做一只灯蛾.
这数月的短暂的时光,比过去六年的空白灿烂得多了.

虽然回到了原点,那最后的拥抱还是给了我很多的温暖和勇气.

May....

4 months plus has passed.....

So many changes have been made....
Most are positives...
Some results are not unexpected... but yet to see if it is positive or negative...

Anyway, 1st Milestone have reached!!! 9 Kg shredded... 4inch of waist reduced....
Back in shape!!! Dress sense improved... Thanks to my volunteer image designers... Haha. Never felt so good/confident for some time already.
Amazing determination. A pat on my own shoulder. haha

Next target, another 5Kg.

Oh, new target too. CISSP certification at July or Sep.
On chapter 3 now. 7 more to go!

During the last 2-3 months. Also met up with a few old friends. Kept my promise to do so. I should really meet more people. Hope to know more people.

Also, inspired to achieve more things in life.... On the other hand, I start to think I deserve better and started feel discontented in life...
And I have started to think about things that I will not think about 6 months ago...
For example, a new relationship, getting a car, get a better position and pay in career, even at the possibility of working overseas.....
The changes shock even myself....... Pray that it is healthy....

It is not easy to go through mindset paradigm shifts.... Let us see how it go....
May be it is just a 3min passion....

Anyway, though they will likely not know. I am so grateful to the group of friends that keep me occupied and giving me advices for the last 2 weeks when I am so down emotionally... I am better now... Woke up in some way.... Thanks, pals.

Haha, not blogging for sometime. Lazy? Perhaps... :-P
Not much details? May be I will write more when I have the mood.
:-)

话剧 "战争与和平 - 男人与女人" @ Espanade

Just watched the performance... the performers and scripts are awesome.
Especially like the line '因为害怕失去, 所以不敢拥有'.

惊喜

太棒了.

三月九号 和 四/五月间的一个星期六!

赶紧买票吧!

1st Month of Changes

About 1 month has passed since I decided for a change.

Reviewing now:
- has been jogging 6 times per week. Increasing from 3km each time to 4.5km each time (since 3 days ago). This is better than I hoped for. Slowly, I will increase the distance.
- Eat less and healthy. Also doing that. More Fruit and Vegetables now.
- Quit online game addition. Also very successful, did not even log in at all since the day I decided to quit.
- Invite friends out. This one is not very successful. Some already have family, hard to come out, and others are busy with activities. Only managed a couple of times only....
- Spend more time with family. This one is also okay, but want more quality time. Need to have some activities with family.
- Spend quality time alone. This one is also okay.

Seems like my personal improvement is getting better, but social wise still need improvement.

Sigh... Introvert is like that, right?... haha...

1st targeted weight lost of 10% is still in-progress. Currently 7.5% achieved. Need more work.

Other than that.... Life is quite routine.... thus not much things to write about on blog....
Hopefully, have more happy things to share.....